My 4 year old daughter's "school work" the other day. My favorite part is the "m" below "wisdom". I had told her the day before when she was copying her alphabet that it looks better if she stops at the red line/margin & she took my advice even when writing part of her verse. :)

My 4 year old daughter’s “school work” the other day. My favorite part is the “m” below “wisdom”. I had told her the day before when she was copying her alphabet that it looks better if she stops at the red line/margin & she took my advice even when writing part of her verse. 🙂

If you were to ask me what I would like to impart most to my kids, it would be wisdom. It wouldn’t be for an easy life or that they would become famous or rich or well-educated or a fit, healthy athlete. Some of those might be nice bonuses, but more than anything, I want them to become wise. I want them to fear God, but then to grow so in love with Him, that they have nothing to fear (1st Peter 4:17-19).

       God has really been impressing upon my heart to teach them wisdom more than anything. This summer, I read both Duggar books & “Shepherding a Child’s Heart” (along with others) that both shared that they read a Proverbs a day to their kids. I thought that was a great idea and this month decided to give it a go and I hope to continue to until it’s no longer just in their heads but deep in their hearts. It’s been amazing to see what they’ve already picked up on and to hear what God has put on their hearts at such an early age. And really, what could be more important to pass onto your kids?

        “My son, if you receive my words, And treasure my commands within you,  So that you incline your ear to wisdom, And apply your heart to understanding;  Yes, if you cry out for discernment, And lift up your voice for understanding,  If you seek her as silver, And search for her as for hidden treasures;  Then you will understand the fear of the Lord, And find the knowledge of God.  For the Lord gives wisdom; From His mouth come knowledge and understanding;  He stores up sound wisdom for the upright; He is a shield to those who walk uprightly;  He guards the paths of justice, And preserves the way of His saints.  Then you will understand righteousness and justice, Equity and every good path.”
                                                                            -Proverbs 2:1-9



What am I supposed to do?
Where am I supposed to go?
Are there really “supposed to’s?”
I’d really like to know

I’m hidden in a crowd
And I’d like to know my way
I’m going around in circles
That I walked just yesterday

But I saw all the same people
They took the same route as i
Am I the only one lost?
Are we all following blind?

I stopped to ask the woman
Who was next to me
If she could go anywhere
Where would it be?

She looked confused
All battered and bruised
The scars I saw upon her soul
She wondered if you
Could even choose
Which way you would go

We’re not stuck in quicksand
We’re not even blind
We don’t have a dictator
Only limited time
And the experiences we encounter
Always consume our mind
And we’ve closed off truth
To listen to Satan’s lies

And if only one person
Could find that Jesus is the way
Wouldn’t be consumed
With religious play

If only one person
Gave up his rights
Gave up self attempts
Let God shine His light

We would all be led
To live a life beyond ourselves
With purpose, direction
Lives without question
Of whether we lived in vain
Because if people opened their eyes to see
They’d find the truth lies in Jesus
Not you and me

But we all keep following the crowd
Of pointing to ourselves
Our self-attempts at religiosity
And I wonder if we
Ever stopped to think
We’re leading others to our own personal hell

Where would we all be?
If we ever stopped to love Jesus
And others more than ourselves
If we stopped to let Jesus in us
To work through us
And let Him be the light

Instead of dimming His truth
And following blindly in the dark
Or showing half-truths
Because we’re afraid of the stark contrast
We might be among the crowd

When all we want is the light
The purpose, the Truth
To stop hiding because of shame
And we all want to know His name
But we’re to afraid
To say it

Jesus, Jesus, be our light
Be our Guide
Through this thick darkness
That covers the night
Help us find our way back to You
Uncover the truth
That the way is You


P.S.~I have no idea why my posts are cut off in the middle of a word & why the format is continually messed up. I don’t write it that way & no matter how many times I try to fix it, it messes back up when I publish it.

Victory Over Complacency

Picture of a cross I took on our honeymoon near San Diego.

Picture of a cross I took on our honeymoon near San Diego.

       Something’s been stirring up in my spirit lately. I’ve been becoming so sick of complacency. So sick of us as Christians caring more about politics and movies and fitting in and lifestyles and fashion and just so many material things than about God. I’m just as guilty as anybody else. It seems that when things are bad, at least, after a while, I run to God. But there are times when things are so good that I just go about enjoying “life” and since there’s nothing to “fix” that I can see, I feel like I have no need of God. It’s really sick, and there’s so much deception there.

       At some point, I started believing our enemy. I started thinking either I know better than God or I’ve run too far from God to go back or like I said, I’ve felt no need for God at times to really dig deeper. Don’t give into the lies. There’s nothing worse than Christians becoming lukewarm and not only not fighting the battle for our souls but for others. And in a way, we side with our enemy then. Don’t become a traitor. God has already won the battle, we just need to claim it.


A warrior I once was,
Bent knees,
Tear-stained cheeks,
Fighting off the enemy

I don’t know when I forgot where I was
When this battlefield started feeling safe
When our unrelenting enemy got me to sit back
Take off my armor, not retaliate

I don’t know when I tuned Your orders out
I don’t know why I tried to take command
I don’t know how to give this battle to You
I wish I could put it back into Your hands

I’ve been taken prisoner now
The enemy’s yelling in my face
He’s calling me, wanting me to be a traitor
Wants me to believe I’ve fallen from grace

I don’t want to believe him
But part of me still does
But with my last breath of hope
I cry out, “Jesus!”

The enemy shudders
As You come on the scene
All his demonic troops have left him
Your presence makes them flee

The enemy starts accusing me
Spitting in my face
Silenced by Your scars
You remind him, “I’ve already taken her place”

Tears are shed, the battle’s won
As our enemy leaves the scene
And once again, I can proclaim,
“God has won the victory!”


          “He who is not with Me is against Me, and he who does not gather with Me scatters.”

                          -Luke 11:23

Beauty’s Journey

July 29, 2012

July 29, 2012-My family and I took a walk through a beautiful neighborhood downtown where I snapped some pictures of my kids with my cheap camera phone.

       Every Monday-Friday morning, my alarm goes off at 5:50 so I can throw up my hair, use the restroom, put on some workout gear, and do a quick but very hard workout with my husband before he goes to work. I love a challenge, or at least the feeling I get after conquering one. Always have. Since waking up earlier now, I’ve even had time to eat breakfast, shower, relax, or get a few things done before my kids get up. While I definitely wish I could take a nap during my two younger kids’ nap time, for the most part, it’s been very refreshing.

       I’ve been thinking a lot more lately how I should welcome challenges in my spiritual life more this way. Obviously it’s not easy to go through any challenge, but if we walked into every challenge knowing that God has called us and is working everything out for our good when we love Him (Romans 8:28) and that every challenge is an opportunity to grow more, I can’t help but think we might just scare the hell out of Satan. 😉 I can’t help but think that if I did that EVERY time I was faced with a spiritual battle, I would get to experience a side of God I have never fully explored and life would seem way more adventurous and meaningful.

My husband and I have had a few conversations lately about some battles I’ve had to face that if I were at the beginning of them and had to choose whether or not I would go through them, I can’t honestly say that I would. They were tough and painful and I had experienced a loneliness I had never known before. However, God knew I needed them, and I’ve seen some fruit lately that may not be if I hadn’t gone through them. Sometimes I wish I could have the same results without all the “work”, but how lasting would that be?

Whatever battle you’re facing today, just remember you’re not alone. If you allow it, it can produce a harvest of righteousness in your life (Hebrews 12:1-7) and a perseverance, character, and hope that you could never imagine had you not gone through it.

“And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.”

-Romans 5:3-5



The journey,
How You wish to lead me
Transcends my understanding
Yet life is so demanding

Your ways so holy
Sometimes unravel slowly
But if beauty came fast
How long would satisfaction last?

Oh God, time seems so unkind
So we settle for the quickest find
Going on a journey
You’re not leading
Hoping it will meet our every need
Disappointed, left empty

We all have needs we want to fill
And sometimes ignore that’s in Your will
But beauty doesn’t come without patience
Whoever heard of a hero without struggle, without endurance?

And how much would freedom cost
If it was never lost?
Or being stress-free
If you never had a worry?

And beauty wouldn’t be so rare
If you found it everywhere
And winning wouldn’t be so great
If it was everyone’s fate

So when this journey seems tough
And I think I’ve had enough
I’ll continue on with patience
Remembering You have me in mind
Beauty comes with endurance
And that’s what I long to find

                                                                              -me R.A.D. (a while back)